Opportunities Abound
Friends. It has been a minute since I have written a blog post, and I apologize. I will get into the opportunities thing in a sec, but real quick, I want to talk about forgiveness.Mainly forgiving yourself, but also definitely forgiving others. As you are all aware by now, I am a dreamer, and occasionally (okay, often) impulsive. I get the entrepreneur itch and I run with it, usually after a moderate amount of consideration, but also usually without much thought into the long term consequences of my actions. I am also really great at starting things, but not so great at finishing them. (New mantra: "FINISH IT" said like in Mortal Combat- "FINISH HIM", right before some characters gruesome demise...) I've started quite a few websites, numerous businesses, a Facebook page, etc., but as soon as it gets out of the development stage, and into the maintenance stage, I lose interest. This happens in every single job I have had, too. As soon as I have learned everything about the position, I get bored and lose interest- generally about 6 months in. I know that I am searching for my thing, and having literally no idea what direction to go in makes finding it supremely difficult. I am going to try to forgive myself for being a great starter, and not a great finisher. I also ask your forgiveness. I am eternally grateful for all of the support each of my projects receives. One day I will create something truly deserving of that support. Until then, forgive me for the changes, the updates, and the switch-backed journey on which I have dragged you along. This site will be undergoing more changes in the near future. It has become a playground of sorts, a place for me to design my thoughts and dreams and then tinker with them before moving on. The life coach business will not be a thing anymore, as I have entered into interesting new territory in life, which I will now explain...Opportunities. They are everywhere. The cool part is when you recognize one as it flies past you just in time to reach out, grab it, and be jerked along for the ride.A few weeks ago I went to a bachelorette party for a dear friend. At that party I met/re-met the besties of the bride. One friend mentioned that she was studying to become a teacher and working towards getting her teaching certificate. That struck me as interesting, so we talked more about it and when I got home, I researched it. I was still working at MMI at the time, and was unhappy with the direction/non-direction the company was taking, so I thought "why not put in a few teaching applications?" Now, I do not have my certificate, nor any teaching experience. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would get an interview for the one and only teaching position I applied for. It practically stunned me into silence when I received the voicemail on my cellphone at work asking me to come in to interview in two days time. I thought I had fallen into a parallel universe when the position was described to me: "STEM Resident Teacher"- a person holding a math or science degree (me), in the process of obtaining their teaching certificate (me). This position is a full-time paid position where I would observe a teacher for a few months before taking my standardized subject matter test and obtaining my certificate and then teaching their class for a few months before enrolling in the program required to complete my certificate. I got the job.I have now been observing and helping out for 2 weeks, and I have learned so, SO much. Firstly, I don't know how I feel about actually teaching the course material yet, but I love developing projects. I love assisting the kids with their projects. I love when the kids crack me up with their goofiness- only when it is not in the middle of a lecture/important class time... I don't love waking up at 5am, leaving the house at 5:30am and driving 40 min to the school. I love getting home by 3:30pm. I don't love having to go to bed at 9pm. I don't love the troublemaker kids. Its interesting, because I am not one of those people who grew up knowing they wanted to teach. I don't like public speaking one bit. But I have met some incredible teachers at this school and I feel like I was placed here to learn something, and I'm excited to figure out what that is. I may not teach very long, and that is fine with me. I wouldn't feel like a failure, because I am still discovering who I am and what my strengths/passions are. I am not afraid of new opportunities, and I know if I die without knowing what it was I was meant to do, or without having found something I am wholeheartedly passionate about, NO ONE can say I didn't try. Thank you for your patience and continued support,Jess